A sort of
apprehension sets in as the last bag of fluid empties. Change
is coming. How soon can we get out of here? It's been too long
a day.
We watch as
other patients are unhooked and begin leaving. Corinne is tired.
She knows that for the next week or ten days, she will feel the
aftermath of the chemo. She knows that she might have some good
days in a row just before the next session in three weeks. She
also knows that the powerful chemotherapy might also plunge her
white or red blood counts into the danger zone, necessitating
daily shots, more exhaustion, bone pain and a level of quarantine
from people.
In many ways,
I wish I could trade places with her. I wish I could take away
her pain and terror. But I can't.